13th Dec 2008. 4.35am

in the morning of 4.35am... i was fighting with him..we fight n fight n fight til the night of the day. i noe its my fault. i keep scolded n scolded him about his past story.. its already 4 months past, but i stil cant 4get the shit things that he ever do 2 me, im sad,im confused,im scared n i hate it so much when i remembered it again. i try n i force myself 2 4get ol the things dat ever happened 2 me. But i CANT. im too WEAK to do dis. The moment dat i HATE it so much every seconds,minutes n hours makes me moreee PAIN and i'll scold him suddenly. WTF? Y im like dis? I love him so much! n i LOVE him than everythings around me! When i scolded him and very SATISFIED wif it, than i will felt sory n felt guilty 2 him. Y im so STUPID n So EGO huh?? Everytime when im thinking the moment that very pain ever happened 2 me, I CRIED, N i felt like wanna KILL the girl name Started With "Q". YUCK! watha such weird name, and i HATE HER sooo muchhh!! eee geramm!! backoff laaa MISS Q~!